I'm such a blog slacker.....Well things are still on the up and up..Dp and I are getting along very well to say the least..We are still taking our time adn not rushing into anything. She is out of town this week until saturday, then we are going to New Orleans for the rest of the weekend, just the two of us..I cant wait!

Wow, I really have to do a better job at keeping up with my blog...Well things are lookin better everyday..Dp and I are gonna try to work things out...We are not back together yet or living together which is prolly for the best, but we have decided that we can get past this...We love each other very much and trully believe that we are meant to be...We are gonna take time to let each other heal and to forgive one another for everythign that has went on..I am feeling so much better...AF finally came..exactly 61days since my last period...First time in almost 3years that i was actually excited to see her...I chopped all my hair off dont remember if i put that on her already..It looks good i was so nervous to cut it all off, but once it was gone I felt so good about it...I am working on alot of personal issues to do with my past and childhood that i know play a huge roll in my adult life..I have a lot of forgiving and forgetting to do.....Thank u all so much with your support through this..

Okay, so i have not reported in awhile, needless too say, things are not exactly easy for me right now, i have been having alot of emotional breakdowns coming at any and every time of the day...I am getting severely depressed and really dont know which way to turn anymore. I feel so lonely and like i dont have anyone. I think i really made a big mistake by startin to hang out with Fred again, I want to see her and I want to spend time with her but its so emotionally hard, cause i feel like she can only be bothered with me when she wants..... I am so lost and dont know what to do anymore. I have found that I hold all emotions in all day long, and at the end of the day I just break and go into the most hysterical cry imaginable....I love her with all myheart adn I miss my old life and all its problems, but I know right now is not the right time for us to be tryin to get back together, we both need the time to heal from everything that has happened recently and everything in the past, otherwise I feel taht it would only be another failed attempt at our relationship....Also I have not had a period in almost 60 days, I dont really no what to think of that considering how regular I am...Hopefully it will be here anyday...