RETRACT THE CLAW LIL MAMA!!!!

So yeah as much as i would like to deny it, I have been having some pretty good mood swings today, I mean I had some serious cases of road rage, I cant even count the number of people that I yelled at and honked at today..Oh and I definately took my sarcastic pill this morning must have been mixed in with my prenatals...Been having some light crampy twinges this evening but no much more than that goin on..Check in later I guess

I am done!!! Thank you God!!!

So yeah my big bright idea of a new flower bed, whopped my ASS!!!!! The work defiantely paid off though....I love them!!!!!

AI complete and Yes Flowers are My New Crack!!!

So we completed our AI yesterday, We did it at 1p.m. thats about 25 hours past the really dark OPK.. I feel pretty good about it, I had some pretty intense O pain last night between 7-8, after that was over my cm started to dry up, so hopefully we nailed it.. Crazy it was our 7th AI and we were fumbling around like it was a first!!!But we got it done!!

So yeah in a previous blog, I was saying how we have been planting a ton of flowers, and the more I do the I want!!Its trully my new CRACK, I am officially addicted to my flowers, so anyway, my bestfriend got me this really pretty birdbath, but its pretty short and it looks crazy just sitting in my yard all by its self, so I got the bright idea to make a circular flower bed around it and make it the focal point and raise it up with flowers all around it, so we went last night and got all the stuff, I got some beautiful, lilies of the nile, yellow calla lillies, and some petunias..SO that is my project for today..I am enclosing pictures of before, cant wait to see the end result!!!!

THANK THE OPK GOD!!!!!

Finally I got a smiley, and temp was the lowest its ever been.. I took two sets of opks two at nine and two at noon..My lines at noon were way darker than the lines from am. Which is what is in the picture..Now I am worried we just wont get the timing right, I am not stresses just worried..I really want this, this month I am ready to be pregnant and for this chapter of our journey to be completed and anew begin..Dp and I worked outside today painting shutters and planting some more flowers, I never knew that flowers could be like CRACK, the more I do the more I want!!!! I managed to get one hell of a sunburn, I hope that does not affect my BBT..O well goin spend time with the ones I love..I will be back tomorrow after AI.....

O the stress of waiting to O!!!

So we had a great weekend, we took braylon to the Monster Jam, that of which I think I enjoyed more than him or Dp.. I am stressing about missing my surge..I think that I got a positive OPK at 11 today but the digitals still keep coming up negative.. I am gonna wait and take another one at about 6pm tonight and go from there, we will know for sure when I temp in the morning, if in fact we missed it and have to send our swimmers back, so we will wait and see!!!!

Feeling Good!

So yeah, I am feelin pretty good!! I have been sleeping my ass off! which is fantastic considering I usually have problems sleeping.. I am getting pretty excited and anxious about our upcomming AI.. Still worried about timing, I really want to nail this one.. I have been exercing with DP and eating better and drinking a ton of decaf green tea which i have read nothing but good things about...So we are praying this is it, its our last chance for a 2007 baby..Which to follow through with our plans with school next year and everything, we really need to get it this month!!! Well I guess thats it for now, not to much goin on in the land of stay home momville!!!

Some Good News Finally!!!

Well Fred had her stress test today at the cardiologist... Everything looked great, no blockage or anything....Her bloodpressure is getting better also..She is to remain on the same track she is on keep exercising, eating right and losing weight...I am so proud of her she has lost 9 lbs since her last visit about two weeks ago...Even though I think that i keep finding the weight...but what the hell as long as she is getting better thats all that matters...I am very excited I sent in the M.O. for our next shipment of spermies, I should be able to order by MOnday which is great I will have them here by friday just in case we should not need them till wednesday..Not sure what timing we will be using for this cycle..We are only using one vial, so I think we need to get as close to O as possible, I typically O about 30 hours after positive so we will see.....Cant wait really praying this is our month...

CD 3!!!

Well here we are back on CD 3.. AF is starting to really slow down, thank god!!! we are getting ready to order for this month. Cant decide which donor we will use, its so frustrating when you call and no one from yourl ist is available...I am feeling pretty good though, energy level is way down, not having the want or will to do anything... Looking forward to a couple days alone, to think about what we can do differently this month, we are only using one vial, so I am praying to hit the nail on the head..I also vow to stay away from the message board and two week wait.com so that I dont drive myself crazy..I will try to blog everyday just so that I can keep track of symptoms and compare to last month...O well off to try and get some laundry done!!!

LA TEE DA---THE B**** IS COMMING!

Well as of yesterday, my temp took a drastic drop and as well as this morning it went down even further..I had a few spots of pink yesterday, and a few today, AF is due tomorrow, so there is no doubt that she will show her devil self sometime tomorrow.. I was saddened, then I just got angry, I know that our timing could not have been any better than it was, so what the hell is the problem...Why cant it just work. It amazes me how some people in the world, drug addicts, crack heads, and teenagers can just get pregnant at the drop of a hat and half the time they dont want it, but the good people in the world have to suffer so much pain and heartache to get something that others take for granted..UUGGGHHHH!!! I have to admit that when I went on the board today and saw yet another BFP, my heart sank and I felt myself get alittle angry or should I say jealous..NOt that I am not happy for all theses great ladies that have finally achieved there goal, cause god knows that I am always excited for them, it just hurt, cause I feel like I will never be able to join in JOY...We are gonna try again this month, possibly with another bank just cause they are a tad bit cheaper, and have more donors to chose from...so I guess we shall see........

12 DPO

It's almost over....only 2 more days left..Temp is still up, which it prolly wont drop till saturday or sunday I guess if AF is coming..I am not testing until sunday the day before AF if temps are still up...The tests dont really bother me, its AF that crushes my world.. I am feeling rather good..No more cramping thank god, and no heartburn right now..I had indegstion so bad last night it took all I had just to swallow my food...After quite a few good burps I felt way better though...So all looks good Dp says I am in a unusual good mood, which is good cause typically I am bitch on wheels this close to AF and we fight constantly, but no fights or bickering so far!!!

10 DPO almost over!!!!

Let the countdown begin only 4 days left in the long dreaded TWW..I am so nervous about testing but yet I want to test because of all the Good luck goin on, on the board..I am gonna hold out a couple more days and see if temps stay up...I had some really nasty AF cramps last night an this morning along with some fiya heartburn...So I suppose only time will tell!!!!!!

9Dpo!!! Yep i did it to myself this morning

Yep, I just had to POAS! So yeah it was a big ol fat negative.. Not to terribly upset, Iknow that it is too early.. I dont really get upset till AF shows, and as for her she better stay far away and go visit somebody thats praying for her period!!!! Not feelin to much its barely 9'o clock and i have already rearranged my kitchen cabinets, so i have a good bit of energy, boobs are slightly sore but not anything like the other day, other than that not have no symptoms at all, I have woke up the last two days with headaches..I promise myself that I am not testing till AF dont show, it dont pay to waste the money!!!

P Dpo!!! Yep i did it to myself this morning

Yep, I just had to POAS! So yeah it was a big ol fat negative.. Not to terribly upset, Iknow that it is too early.. I dont really get upset till AF shows, and as for her she better stay far away and go visit somebody thats praying for her period!!!! Not feelin to much its barely 9'o clock and i have already rearranged my kitchen cabinets, so i have a good bit of energy, boobs are slightly sore but not anything like the other day, other than that not have no symptoms at all, I have woke up the last two days with headaches..I promise myself that I am not testing till AF dont show, it dont pay to waste the money!!!

8dpo

Well, I can hardly believe it I actually woke up this morning feeling pretty good!!! I dont wether to be excited or upset...In my first pregnancy I did not have any symptoms at all, expect for veins on my boobies, so I am not gonna worry yet...My boobs are hurting pretty damn bad with a lot of purple veins on them they almosot looked bruised..so I guess we shall see, I am going to test on 10 dpo if its negative then I will hold out for AF....

7 DPO

I feel like crap that basically sums everything up.. I woke up this morning feeling like a total train wreck....I have no energy and quite a serious headache!!!!

4 dpo (Is it over yet)

Actually the tww is not quite so bad... I have been occupying my time with my Xbox..Pass a lot of time for me..Only thing to report today is a really bad stomach ache this morning, then heartburn and then indigestion, and all I ate was special k then a subway sandwish for lunch, I went to walmart earlier, and I got really quesy and the smell of cocoa pebbles make me want to gag.. God i really hope that I am not imagining these things, I will be so upset, funny thing is I am not really stressing and not really looking for anything, I know its very early, I called my old ob/gyn to find out when was my last appt. with him cause thats when I had the blood test for my son that of which came up negative then three days later I had a positve hpt.. I was 7 dpo for blood test negative and 11 dpo for hpt which was a very very faint positive.. So we will be waiting till at least 12 dpo to test just cause I dont want to upset myself to soon,.