So I havent posted in awhile...Things are going great. Actually they couldnt be better. I am so excited about the holidays being right around the corner..I am hoping to spend the weekend pulling all the christmas stuff out of the attic, and checking lights adn ornaments, to see what we need to buy or replace. Everything has fallen into place so well, that it sometimes seems surreal to think of where I was only 2months ago, practically on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I am truly thankful for the break that DP and I took, I think it was the best thing for us, it really made us realize how much we love each other and want to spend our lives together. I feel very refreshed, and ready to start new chapters in our lives. Hopefully after the first of the year, we will be jumping back on teh TTC wagon, I am very anxious to get started on that, but I have to admit the long break has been nice. I am going to begin charting my cycles again this month. I am praying that this is what we needed and it wont take us very many tries. I think this time we are gonna make a game plan, I would say at most 3 more at home tries, since we only tried once since getting tubes cleared out, then moving to IUI dr. assisted for a couple of tries, and if that gives us nothing, then I guess it would be time to look into other options. I swear when we started this journey nearly 3 years ago, I would never have thought it would have taken so long to reach our goal. I honestly thought since I concieved on first try with my son, it would work the same way. Guess that joke was on me. At least I have answers now and know that both of my tubes were blocked so that does make me feel a little bit better, adn I will never stop believing that I was pregnant in July adn misscarried. Whos knows? I am letting go of all the past failed attempts and going into this fresh like its our first time. I am so excited and just down right happy about everythign right now!!!

Nothing new to report..My baby boys football team is going to the playoffs this weekend, so I am super excited about that..Work is going good, and DP and I are still very much hard at work on US...Still trying to decide on new vehicle, but other than that everything is going great!!!

Not too much goin on around here..Man i realize now that I am currently not TTC, I really dont have much to blog about anymore. Things are still going pretty well. I am in the process of trying to see my car, and purchase a new one. Thats always fun!! Not sure what exactly I want yet, I know its between a Corolla and another Civic...I am really leaning towards the Civic just because thats what I drive now. So I guess we will see over the next couple of weeks..Work is going well, business is starting to pick up, so I have been working late almost every night, which is a real bummer.. I am totally gearing up for the holiday season...I cant wait to start decorating. It is killing me to wait until next month to put my christmas tree up. Dp and I both had birthdays about a week ago, I know imagine that our birthdays are on the same day....I got this really awesome new digital camera, that I have been having so much fun playing with...Also this really cool digital picture frame that u put your memory card into, and it plays slideshows of your pictures...Its awesome!! Well i guess that is all for now..Be back soon

Where should I begin, first off we had a great weekend in New Orleans...It was our first trip since Hurricane Katrina, honestly not much has changed, its the same old place.. We stayed right across the street from Emril Lagasse's restraunt Nola! That was exciting to me, I am a huge food network fan...We didnt eat there, I have a bad habit of vomiting after I drink and there was no way, i was gonna waste that food....lol!!!! We enjoyed ourself though...It amazes me how many people bring there small children on Bourbon st...I mean really what is there on bourbon st that your young child and toddlers need to see....And we dare ask why alcoholism is so prominent in Louisiana...I mean they show these kids how to party at 2..Its crazy...Other than that not much is going on...Braylon had strep throat last week, so he was home from school for two days, then of course he made mommy sick, so I have been battling a nasty sinus infection for almost a week....

I'm such a blog slacker.....Well things are still on the up and up..Dp and I are getting along very well to say the least..We are still taking our time adn not rushing into anything. She is out of town this week until saturday, then we are going to New Orleans for the rest of the weekend, just the two of us..I cant wait!

Wow, I really have to do a better job at keeping up with my blog...Well things are lookin better everyday..Dp and I are gonna try to work things out...We are not back together yet or living together which is prolly for the best, but we have decided that we can get past this...We love each other very much and trully believe that we are meant to be...We are gonna take time to let each other heal and to forgive one another for everythign that has went on..I am feeling so much better...AF finally came..exactly 61days since my last period...First time in almost 3years that i was actually excited to see her...I chopped all my hair off dont remember if i put that on her already..It looks good i was so nervous to cut it all off, but once it was gone I felt so good about it...I am working on alot of personal issues to do with my past and childhood that i know play a huge roll in my adult life..I have a lot of forgiving and forgetting to do.....Thank u all so much with your support through this..

Okay, so i have not reported in awhile, needless too say, things are not exactly easy for me right now, i have been having alot of emotional breakdowns coming at any and every time of the day...I am getting severely depressed and really dont know which way to turn anymore. I feel so lonely and like i dont have anyone. I think i really made a big mistake by startin to hang out with Fred again, I want to see her and I want to spend time with her but its so emotionally hard, cause i feel like she can only be bothered with me when she wants..... I am so lost and dont know what to do anymore. I have found that I hold all emotions in all day long, and at the end of the day I just break and go into the most hysterical cry imaginable....I love her with all myheart adn I miss my old life and all its problems, but I know right now is not the right time for us to be tryin to get back together, we both need the time to heal from everything that has happened recently and everything in the past, otherwise I feel taht it would only be another failed attempt at our relationship....Also I have not had a period in almost 60 days, I dont really no what to think of that considering how regular I am...Hopefully it will be here anyday...