Sorry it has taken so long to get pictures posted up from the decorating and stuff..Bray had a great birthday even though it poured down raining all day long and we lost electricity for about 2 hours we had a great time. I can hardly believe my little man is 5. It is time to get this babymaking on the ball. I had some bloodwork done last week, my doctor wanted to check out my thyroid adn make sure its functioning properly. I am patiently waiting for the results, I doubt anything is wrong but I repsect him for wantign to check. He put my on Effexor to help with my depression and anxiety, I have read that its not really safe for pregnancy, so Im not sure how long I will be taking it, I have a great doctor though, that has given me free samples to last for a month, to see if it works for me before I start paying for it. Hope everyone has a great week, adn is enjoying the holiday shopping season!!

To start off, I hope that everyone had a very good Thanksgiving..Ours was great. We did get all the outside decorations up, and I did take pictures just have not had a chance to upload them yet..I promise I will get them on here..It came out really good, we did things a little bit different this year. Hopefully we will be able to get the inside done this weekend, but we have Braylons birthday party and all kinds of stuff going on..Oh and yes my baby turns 5 this sunday..I cant wait for his party, we were originally gonna have it outside with a fum jump and hot dogs and all that good stuff, but you know we live in South Louisiana, and the temp is like 40 degrees with a 100% chance of rain all weekend...Its fantastic gumbo weather!!

Okay, so the weather gods must have been listening in on my rant yesterday cause DP woke me up at 4am this morning becuase the wind was so bad outside, well needless to say we had a nice cold front coming through..It has been one beautiful day with temps only reaching about 63.. It feels great..Tomorrow morning temps are suppose to dip around 39..HOpefully the weather will stick around for awhile at least until thanksgiving it will suck if we have a hot thanksgiving!!Thats all for now hope everyone has a great weekend, we are putting up Christmas stuff, i will post pictures!!

Not much happening here in South Louisiana...The weather stinks..Literally..They are cutting and buring sugarcane, and it smells awful, and im not sure how much more my sinuses can take..I have been sneezing and blowing for nearly two months..Now my little one is sneezing and blowing...It sucks. The weather is HOT! I mean we are a week away from Thanksgiving and we are still in the mid 80's..It is crazy..We had a few days of chilliness a couple of weeks ago...But for teh last couple of weeks, it has been hot and dry..No rain I am still having to water my outside plants in November and we still have green grass. Its so weird. I can't wait till this weekend. We are finally get in the attic and take down all the christmas stuff..We are planning to get the outside done this weekend and the inside next weekend after Thanksgiving...

It is little mans birthday next Sunday. He is so excited about turning 5. In mommy time that is a mile stone of course. We are having a party for him at home with all his little friends..Mommy will be having sad time of course trying to smile and laugh all day as my little heart aches as he just keeps growing and growing...Oh and did I mention we have reached the stage where he dont want to kiss me when I drop him off at school..He tells me he doesnt have time..WTF I mean I thought that I had a few more years before that would start happening..I mean when he turns 6 I will have to drop him down the road from school. I swear it feels like just yesterday I was delivering him..Just makes me want another baby so much worse. They grow way to fast.

So hopefully we will be back on board to start TTC in January..I can hardly wait and I am really praying that the long break will pay off with a quick BFP. TTC is really torture for me. As im sure it is for everyone else. I know that it will happen and I have expected that it is not really somehting I can control, it will happen when the time is right.

Since I have never participated in the tagging game, I figured I would go ahead and list 6 random facts about myself, that most people do not know.....

1. I hate to sit in a bath tub and get wrinkled, I cannot stand the way it feels, it makes me crazy..

2. I keep a collection of bottled drinks on my side of the bed..

3. I am always cold, even when its 98 degrees outside, I have a heater under my desk on high all day long.

4. I have a horrible habit of over analyzing, planning, and time management...I am a total clock watcher I hate to be late for anything...

5. I freaking cannot stand bad drivers. They make my blood pressure so high.

6. I love trash magazines, and celebrity gossip, TMZ is like a crack addiction to me. I waste so much money on magazines...

So, I am sitting her at my desk at work,(obviously not working)...And I find myself curious from fellow TTCers, do you ever find yourself in a jealous desperate stare at other people's children. You see we have a couple in here right now that have a infant babygirl, no more than about 2 or 3 months old, and I keep finding myself just lost in stare at her. Not sure if its desperation or jealousy. I wonder if her parents know exactly how precious there gift is, and how some women live with years of infertility desperate for that moment of holding your baby gazing into there eyes, and knowing that they depend on you for everything. It just makes me crazy, and some part of me knows that it shouldnt bother me that much, because I have been blessed with one child already, and I know that in time it will be our turn to share that joyous experience. Just thought I would share what I was feeling right at this moment, as I gaze at this little babygirl sitting across from me...and pray silently that one day we will be blessed..

So I havent posted in awhile...Things are going great. Actually they couldnt be better. I am so excited about the holidays being right around the corner..I am hoping to spend the weekend pulling all the christmas stuff out of the attic, and checking lights adn ornaments, to see what we need to buy or replace. Everything has fallen into place so well, that it sometimes seems surreal to think of where I was only 2months ago, practically on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I am truly thankful for the break that DP and I took, I think it was the best thing for us, it really made us realize how much we love each other and want to spend our lives together. I feel very refreshed, and ready to start new chapters in our lives. Hopefully after the first of the year, we will be jumping back on teh TTC wagon, I am very anxious to get started on that, but I have to admit the long break has been nice. I am going to begin charting my cycles again this month. I am praying that this is what we needed and it wont take us very many tries. I think this time we are gonna make a game plan, I would say at most 3 more at home tries, since we only tried once since getting tubes cleared out, then moving to IUI dr. assisted for a couple of tries, and if that gives us nothing, then I guess it would be time to look into other options. I swear when we started this journey nearly 3 years ago, I would never have thought it would have taken so long to reach our goal. I honestly thought since I concieved on first try with my son, it would work the same way. Guess that joke was on me. At least I have answers now and know that both of my tubes were blocked so that does make me feel a little bit better, adn I will never stop believing that I was pregnant in July adn misscarried. Whos knows? I am letting go of all the past failed attempts and going into this fresh like its our first time. I am so excited and just down right happy about everythign right now!!!